This baby is a tricky one. Every time I think I have this pregnancy figured out it throws me for a loop. Around my 12 week mark I was feeling really good. I was thinking my vomiting was on the upside. So I decided to stop taking the meds. Maybe it was a combination of me hating to be on meds while I am prego, or the fact that I really hate some of the side effects the meds, or maybe I just really wanted to believe I was better, any of these reasons could be why I stopped taking the meds but it was a bad idea. The day after I stopped taking the meds the vomiting started hardcore. So after three bad days I went back on the meds. My body is still adjusting but hopefully it will be back to normal soon.
Also this same weekend I decided to stop taking my meds, I started to spot a little. So I reached down to make sure everything was okay and something was coming out. I immediately called the doctor and he said since I wasn't cramping or bleeding I wasn't having a miscarriage. He said it sounded like my bladder was hanging low. I guess in pregnancy when all your organs are rearranging it can cause your bladder to slip down low. Well I went into the doctor today to check on things and it turns out it is not my bladder it is my cervix hanging out! I have what's called a prolapsed cervix. It is something that is common with women who have had a lot of babies and are really stretched out. Where I have only had one prior baby and had no complications during birth they were really surprised. SO what this means is currently they can't do anything for it. The baby is in no danger. It is healthy and strong which I am very grateful for! As I get further along it may become more of a complication. It could come out during birth, if that were to happen they would put it back up in me and hopefully while I heal it would stay up. If it doesn't I would have to have surgery to hook it up in there.
I worry, Tyler worries but there isn't much we can do right now. It's all kind of in the unknown currently, I try not to worry over things I have no control over but I feel like I should have control over this. It's my body right? ha ha I am just praying and having a lot of faith right now. With trials you faith grows stronger! Even with my house the disaster it is, the craziness this pregnancy has been, and the sickness I have felt the last six weeks I have never felt closer to my Heavenly Father than I do now. He has had his arms around me this entire time. I can tell he has had a hand in Sophia too. She has been so calm and understanding for a 20 month old. She watches her momma on the couch and in the bathroom and just comes and kisses my head and will go play with her toys. I just can't believe how amazing she has been the last 2 months! I truly am blessed.
I need to give another shout out to my amazing family and friends. All the prayers and service have been amazing and more than I could ask for! I need to give a special shout out to my husband who is so unbelievably busy with school and getting ready for the O.A.T. and so much more and has been my rock through this whole thing. He dotes on me and gets me whatever I need, he is so good with Sophia when he gets home and he is constantly trying to cook and clean for me. He is a great man! We missed all of our holidays this year because I was so sick, we missed my birthday, our anniversary, and valentines day. I was even gone over Valentines Day so the day after I am home on the couch ill and my amazing husband sent me some of my favorite flowers! Daisies! They were gorgeous and they sat on my TV stand till they were way past dead! He is just so sweet to think of me all the time!